心疼她的心痛

她爱他，爱了那么久

可是当障碍不断地随着时间增加

他放弃了，说他累了，辛苦很久了

即时她口是心非地说好

他仍然说走就走

她爱他，爱得入心

说好了放他走

却始终知道放他走是在杀了她

放不下那一段情

那走过不少风风雨雨的一段情

你爱她吗?

是逼不得已地想放弃？

还是即时原因不出自她的家长，你仍然想和她走到最后？

你知道吗？

没有你的夜，她的枕头是湿的

她的心痛，你又知道多少？

你却始终忍心让她承受，放她回归原点

眼泪流干了，感情却从来没有离去

爱，伤人伤得彻底

用一段长久的时间去经营一段感情

却因为你的一句“我很辛苦，让我走” 而放弃了

抚心自问，你到底爱不爱她

不爱了，就说明白，让她要伤就伤得彻底

拖拖拉拉，只会让她继续对你有期望

是忠言，是逆耳，只有当事人才明了

End of 3rd semester

I am back to here.
Suddenly feels like want to share the feeling inside my heart.
Seriously, college life is much more tougher than secondary school.
I enjoyed anyway, just because I have known many friends that can truly trust.
I don't mind to share anything with they guys.
I just think that friends should always be frank to each other.
If you just pretend that you can be smart by those ways,
sorry that I am not your friend actually.
It's just personal comment, don't need to be so suspicion to what I am saying.
I will be kind enough if you are kind to me.
If you are just talking bullshit there, then please leave.
I don't need such friends that just want to treat you as a tool to be successful.
Teamwork is the way to be success, not just rely on others to help you.
You can study harder and concentrate more if you think that you will not success.
People can do so, you can do as well.
Don't always think I am so kind, sorry, I am the bad one. =)

END OF THIRD SEMESTER...
I love you all guys. The best ever friends and classmates I have. =)

The night

You is going out with friends after sent me back home.
Sitting in the car, I was remembered something.
Sigh, I should not remember it actually.
Hate my brain, kill off the memories. =(

I don't want to make you unhappy anymore.
As long as you happy, my feeling is doesn't matter.
I am serious. Ya, I think.
Hmmm, should be on bed now.

Controlling the stupid tears again, damn.
I think is stomach pain makes me feel like crying.
Is damn pain, haiz.

Night.

原来我不知道的事，在你说出来的那一刻是多么地伤人。

原谅我的自以为是，是我不够好。

不想在你的面前流泪，连对着你说对不起，也没有勇气。

你的包容，能撑到多久。我开始害怕。

我以为只要我们在一起，不管在哪里，你也会和我一样开心。

今天，我知道了，你其实不快乐。

是我，让你失去了和朋友一起的时间。

我好想问，你是不是很辛苦。

我问不出来，因为我真的没有勇气听你说。

对不起，真的。

The reunion dinner @ 2012

Reunion dinner, there is a home made Poon Choi in my house.
It will be more fun if hubby here, but he is at Johor now.
Tomorrow is first day of Chinese New Year.
Wondering what time I should wake up actually, lol.
Anyway, a good news, I get 3 ang pau today.
Heee.
Bye.

Thursday

Back to here, again.
Watch a video, don't know cry because of touch, or else.
Sigh, forget it, I should be used to it.
Just let it become your daily activities, without me.

My mood is just swing.
If I don't expect something from you, I think I will be better.
Tears drop again and again.
So hurt, baby.

I will be okay after today.
I swear, I will.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jfeL4uvjZ0

就像一個夢想　只能　想像 

就像兩個氣球　不容　碰撞 

說聲很有感覺　簡單　承認真實相處的感覺　

很難 一點點不安　就掛在心上 

不是愛不起　只是傷不起 只知道堅持脆弱浪漫　

不知道誰不自量 還難過　誰能忘　以為追求完美卻又經不起受傷 

既然歡樂變成負擔　只有不歡而散 

就像咖啡只能　不斷　加糖 

就像親吻不曾　預備　心酸 

只會接受相擁感動　不愿面對抱頭痛哭　

難堪 悲傷到這樣　也只能這樣 

不是愛不起　只是傷不起 只知道堅持脆弱浪漫　

不知道誰不自量 還難過　誰能忘 以為追求完美卻沒想過會受傷 

既然歡樂變成負擔　只有　不歡而散 

不是不愛你　只是傷不起 不斷在分享沒想過分擔 

一字差　太易　莽撞 才失望　就絕望 以為追求完美變成兩敗俱傷 

既然歡樂變成負擔　活該　不歡而散 

6 more days to go!

I am back in the night, cheeze!
I am excited to back to college, start class and get crazy with my classmates.
Semester break is just 3 weeks but I already felt boring in the second week of break.
A short break will be better for me, to rest enough.

I miss my classmates so much!

All right, stop being too excited.

My game's friends always ask me to keep my image, 淑女形象!

Haha, actually, game is a place to know more people.

They seldom scold me not enough good manner, because I seldom scold bad words in Facebook.

Anyway, I should not make my blog looks death again.

My previous blog is much more better than this. =P

At least, many interesting memories in my secondary school were there.

Ya, I miss my sisters and besties so much. 

If I am free in the first week of new semester, I would be plan to gather with them.

Maybe, one week? 

Time will not be enough for me and my sisters.

Why?

Because we will be crazy of taking photos! Muahahaha...

Erm, okay, keep my image.

Stop crazy talking about nonsense any more.

It's the time to reply message. =P

Bye~

New year begin

A new year, a new hope?
Sigh, I will stop study once I finish my diploma okay?
Stop keep talking about money.
I had borrowed loan already, what you want from me again?

Don't everyday just ask me about money.
I know money is very important, but please don't make it as daily topic.
Loan also need to wait right? Be patient, please, guys.
I am not the government, so how I will know the loan will be coming for me?

Sigh, money always the topic before Chinese New Year.
Don't act as rich person if you don't have enough money to use.
Your brothers and sisters did not treat you good as others.
Ang pau is just a "lai si", not must be above fifty or hundreds.
Don't you know they just like to give 2 bucks?
Doesn't matter about the amount inside the ang pau, I don't care.
Since they did not treat you good, what for you waste your money for them?
Don't need give them and they don't need give us also.
Fair. =)

Forget about money.
Another new semester, please end the semester break.
I don't want to stay home any more.
It's too boring, without him. ^^