倒数16个小时

心，空了。
泪，干了。
开始倒数16个小时，去吧。
我真失败。
你们要他，我就让你们吧，我累了。

反正整个学期，他见你们，还多过见我。
圣诞节，也一个人。
罢了，我服输。
反正，这个学期你们没有拿完我的时间，也不会算的。
就当这个学期是垃圾学期。
我的时间都拿来秃废，当个废人。

夜

时间过得快，也过得慢。

谁知道，我的夜晚，是怎么过。

我不想再让眼泪弄湿我的枕头。

我的泪，就快要干了。

心里的话，找谁去说？

我没有勇气说出口。

就像是dear说的—— If love does not exist, pain does not exist.

有时这句话是对的，相反地，有时是错的。

她曾说的一句话，一点也没有错。

     一个人在夜晚哭泣，是个难受的感觉。

只不过，我们两个，都有着不同的故事。

她有她的苦衷，我有我的难过。

而我的难过，到底从哪里来，我自己也很迷茫。

是最近吧，我的眼泪比较不受控制。

是时候该停一停了，努力地对着现在坐在电脑面前的自己说。

我不想解释，不想说原因，因为我自己也不清楚，我到底是个怎样的人。

我好想说，不要，可是我说不出口。

是的，或许我是个自私的人，一味地想留你在身边。

可是你并不快乐，你需要的，不只是只有我。

这几天，好想拿回自己的房间。

至少，半夜忽然哭起来的时候，没有人会知道。

至少，哭的时候，自己可以冷静一下想一想要怎么做。

甚至，我的难过也不需要任何理由。

已经好久好久，没有写那么难过的东西。

忽然这样，我自己也好不习惯，真的。

现在，眼泪又停了一下。

想一想，真的要我不再去在乎吗？

明明自己就知道，不去在乎的方法只有一个。

可是那个方法，一点也行不通哦。

因为，我不可能会放弃他。

即使我自己难过，我也不会放弃。

即使明知道自己做不到。

即使………再多个即使……

唉，我不但是个自私的人，还有点自我矛盾的感觉。

难怪，最近的我，那么奇怪。

23 December ; 13:19

I am here today.
Still not yet fully recover but it's already been okay.
Today is Yee Liang's birthday, having BBQ tonight on his house.
But I think I am not going, maybe, it's better.
He told me he will be going and he asked me to stay home since I were sick.
Anyway, I just follow ba.

Don't want to make him feel that I like to follow him and I will be unhappy if I didn't follow.
I just, need a peace right now.
He likes to hang out with his friends without me,
then I will not following.
Maybe it's the time to change.
Almost 2 years, something that he could ignore last time,
he might not ignore now any more.
Just let it be, and I will be silent.
Don't want to talk so much and lastly argue for the same things again.
I am tired seriously.

My body is sick, and my heart is sick too.
I will try my best to cure, without any help.
I could be independent as you never seen before.
Believe me, if I don't want to do that, and I will not do that any more.
I am still me, I didn't change my basic rules and my safety zone.

It's semester break

Finally go through the four subjects in the 2nd semester.
Many mistakes I have done in the final exams and very hopefully I can get my cGPA of 3.5 this semester.
Not much to talk about my college life, seriously, it's better than staying home without things to do.
However, my semester break is ongoing by staying home and sleep.
Can you imagine I can sleep from 1am until 3pm?
They thought I were crazy.

Sigh, feels like nothing to chat here?
Ya, it's because I just staying home.
Went 1 Utama bought my new year clothes, still not yet found my dream dress.
Just don't want to keep stay simple, I need to have changes.

Let's try to get a haircut, dye hair and rebonding.
Then, try some clothes which are acceptable.
Do not know what I will looks like if I change my taste, lol.
But still remain the same rule, keep it simple.
But I will not accept colourful clothes with flowers or what ever patterns.
It makes me looks mature than my actual age.
I know my face already looks mature, so that I don't want to make myself more mature.
Make up? Hmm, thinking to learn it. =)

Many activities I wish to plan, but, I have no car in this semester.
What to do? Unless got transport, or not I just can stay home.
Feels want to gather with my ji mui and friends.
I know I just hanging out with Ronnie and Aaron, but still not yet with my ji mui.
Lol, don't think too much first.
Bless myself to get my result soon, I know I am still stress of it. =X

醒觉

有时，我宁愿不去想，也不去问。
反正结果会是和预料中的一样，是一连串的谎言。
我说的每一句，即使你不听，我再也无所谓。
只因为我的身份，容不了我多说。

或许我的爱是枷锁，让你喘不过气。
或许我说的话不够明白，你不了解。
或许我的态度不好，让你觉得厌烦。
那么就和我说，你不需要这些，只需要静静的我。

我就不去理会，当作眼睛盲了看不到。
听到的，当耳边风，左耳进右耳出。
这样的我，你又觉得我在不开心，发脾气。
错了，只是累了，我不想再管那么多。
什么都当作看不到，或许我更开心。

你也乐得自在，出门不用交代。
想去哪里就去，不用再在乎我怎么想。
不用每星期陪我，哪里也不能去。
甚至要去clubbing，也不用让我知道。

如果这时你想要的，我会做得到。
因为我不会再流泪，为了你一层又一层的谎言。

Say hello to 11.11.11

Yay, just back from dinner.
Hubby brought me go Star Village dinner o.
Feel so happy that this is the second time we celebrate our birthday together.
Sweet. <3

We ordered black pepper chicken chop, golden chicken chop and chicken spaghetti.
Growing weight later on. Haha.
The drink does not taste good, sorry. =3
This Friday is a memorable day.
I am happy and excited with this.

And for the next Friday, it will be his birthday.
Wow, I gonna plan something best for him.
Don't know will success or not.
But I still will try my best.

I love you, hubby.
Mwah.
This weekend he will be working.
Stay home and fight for assignment!
Support you. <3

A broken heart

What should I do now.
Please tell me how.
What the fuck I can do now.
Hahahahahahaahahahaha.

I am such useless.
An useless person.
Hahahahahahahahahaha.

I wish I could be brave.
I wish I could control my mind.
I wish my tears will not drop.

Suddenly, my heart was pain.
I have been wait for two weeks, but so sad.
This weekend will be the same.
I felt I am alone.

不一样的早晨

有时在想，在检讨

却偏偏什么也做不了

我试着去接受，试着去忽视

结果还是一样

解不开的心结

这是我唯一的遗憾

懂得信任，懂得取悦

却不懂得去谅解那不是问题的一个问题

复杂的重叠，就像解不开的魔术方块

既然不懂得解

我只好选择忽视，对彼此都好

有时候不说，只是不想破坏彼此的感情

毕竟说出来，就没有回头的余地

因为裂痕已经从心底开始分裂

注明一点

我不喜欢别人抄袭我

要抄就抄到足，不要抄一半再加自己的东西下去

姐妹知己我无所谓

不过不好意思，你和我不是很熟

Fuck off!

Another boring days coming...

Back again. Sad.

Tomorrow hubby go work le lo.

Friday, Saturday and Sunday, sad sad sad.

Never mind la, this weekend I stay home do assignments lo.

Since so many assignments due soon.

Presentation coming also, aikz.

Nothing else to write already, bye! =)

Weekend

Today is already Sunday, my weekend just pass by doing nothing at home.
Sigh, it's too sudden for me that he is going for work this weekend.
I thought this weekend still can meet him because next week he will be going for work also.
Never mind la, like this also pass my weekend already.

- College stuff
Just checked my PTPTN loan, finally it's passed.
I can now start printing the documents and prepare to submit as soon as possible.
But I didn't do so, because I do not know what should I do first.
Just leave it, tomorrow after class will be going to ask Ms. Yee Yee.

Still 3 more group assignments not yet start all all.
Human Relations, Accounting 2 and also English.
I still don't have the motivation to finish it, wonder why.
However, I have to start also because the due date is coming soon.

Tests coming also right?
Sigh.

- A video on Facebook
Saw my friends posted out a video.
The dog is now 17 years old, and it will not longer living in this world.
It is sick, and it still want to protect its guardian.
Someone translate what it want to tell its guardian that "I am happy to be together with you".
So touch when I watched the video.

- November
Soon, November will be coming.
Our anniversary day and birthday coming together.
Have to save money because I don't feel like wasting your money.
We can celebrate together, after my presentation, your birthday.
I still wish to be with you on my birthday, it's enough although we are just staying home.
As long as, you are with me. =)
Wonder how I can make a perfect anniversary card for you.
Should it be a story with pop-up?
Or just make it a simple but meaningful anniversary card?

Haa, I still don't have any great ideas.

Alright, it's the time to stop blogging.
I should offline now and take a rest.
A little bit headache with me now.
Bye~

Tetris battle

Well, just keep losing in game.
Really sien... =.=
I don't care, later I want to win all back and raise my rank as high as possible.
Yawn!

Tomorrow is Management test, then the next day will be Human Relations.
Ish, both together, I will try my best to remember all, okay?
Ya, this Wednesday will be going BLS talk.
I don't feel like want to meet the fella who talking nonsense there.
Just make complaints during the talk please, HENRY CHOO! or maybe MARIO CHOO?

Okay, today's mood seems not really good.
Kinda sien already, don't wan to talk this anymore, just off and continue my games!
Bye bye~

Back without having a nice nap...

Hey dude, I just saw you post something on my wall.
Sorry ya, yesterday whole day keep rushing the assignment until 2am.
Totally exhausted after I have done that.
Back in the afternoon now, updates blog and helps my classmates to finish up their assignment.
Really tired, eyes wan close already.

Ya, I think so we have to hang out in one day.
28, 29 and 30th of October I will be free.
My hubby will going to work that weekend.
I will staying at home for nothing. -.-

Sigh, few assignments have to rush up later.
I have no enough time to relax. Sad ar, ji mui.
Seriously, you should not help them to finish their part of works.
Ignore them since they doesn' want the marks.
Do your part and hand up to the lecturers.
Tell them why are you just passing up the only part of the entire assignment.
Let them know that you will not care them although they doesn't want to do that.
You got your marks is enough, no need to help them to get their marks.
They shouldn't get the same marks with you.
Let them know how is the feeling of pissed off.

Luckily, my team members will not pissed me off. Wow. ^^

Alright, stop nagging about the assignments.
Of course, I will be stop nagging about the tests.
Beh tahan, my classmates complained me about my blog is just can't leave away from assignments.
Li Wen, I heard you. =D

Is the time to stop blogging.
I am freaking tired.
Hungry some more, I not yet lunch.
Bye bye.

Blog, blog and blogging...

Hey, I am back. At level 9 now, doing nothing.
Because have to go home soon, what for to keep on rushing like hell.
Well, take it easy, okay. Lol.
Talking to myself like a crazy person? =.=

Ya, soon I will going to be crazy.
Wei Lun took my notes, tomorrow ar, my account test 1 ar.
Please la, remember give back me. =D

Kok Meng looks cute with the hair clip.
Hahahaaha, he is beside me but I still dare to say it out.
Funny, he laugh, lol.
Going back soon, 15 minutes more perhaps.

I need to take a nap before start studying my account.
It seems difficult because theory will make me feel urghhh.
However, have to do well in my tests too.
I don't bother which subject it is, i just wonder about the marks.
Management I already got 8.8 out of 10.
I just need another more 8-9 marks for test 2, then management can say is perfect A+

Human relations this subject I can't really handle it.
Seems a little bit difficult to get high marks for that.
Haiz. I need motivation!

Lastly, very thank you to John and Kok Meng la.
They help me to get back my account notes from Wei Lun.
=DDDDD   thank you~ ^^

Addicted to blog again?

I think I am a little bit addicted.
Ish, no mood to do assignment now.
What to do?

Westlife's concert coming soon, but I can't go.
So sad, I just can face computer only.
Bought new laptop sounds good, but this is the first one and it will be last one.
Have to take good care of my laptop already.

Feeling hungry now, I need some food.
Then sleep early today and wake up early tomorrow.
Okay okay, off now ya!

Back in the night~

I am back again. Lol.
Just finished dinner with my mum and hubby.
I thought that finally I can get my black pepper chicken chop.
But, I didn't get it today. =(
Kissaten no chicken chop!

- Reply Pamela's new post ^^
Chill, dear.
Take care of yourself, drink more water since there are much of works waiting for you.
Actually your situation always will be happened in college.
Sometimes, there will be someone leave their work for you although that is group work.
Luckily my college got the form, which you can fill up who doesn't complete their work.
Then, they will be ask to give a good reason.

Mine also almost every week due date.
But I seems relax because I can't be too stress.
I have to relax to avoid faint down again. Sigh.
Anyway, remember, we are always beside of each other.
Don't be too stress, because sometimes we need to relax before rushing up our works.
So, chill, dear. =)

- Back to topic
Hubby is now with me, so hope he can stay my house overnight.
He is my good blanket, bed and also pillow.
Haha. Sounds very ham sap? Lol.
Have to send him back later, tomorrow will go and find parking again.
I won't be there for 4 hours anymore.
I am totally lack of sleep. Not chill! =(

Finally!

Oh my god, my blog really looks death.
Actually I had forgotten which email I am using for my blog.
So, that's why it looks really death lo.
Is the time to update since the last post was in June. Haha =P

- School time
It's another new semester, which will be end in December.
Sigh, no need earn money for outing already.
Anyway, this October really quite busy.
I wonder why all lecturers like us to hand up everything on October.
There are tests waiting for me some more.

Miss Kaycee really made us shocked.
She said that have to hand up the individual assignment in class on next Monday.
But yesterday she said that "hand it up for me on Friday, spacing 1.5 is enough".
Lol, luckily I finished already, so that this weekend can rest a while.
But Human Relations individual assignment I still not yet finished yet it has to hand up next Friday too.
I don't care la, I need rest this weekend.
This few days keep on not enough sleep!

Add oil for the coming tests and assignments, Jojo, Wen, Kitty and Eva.
Of course John, Kok Meng, Kingsley, u all also need add oil la.
Fight hard for this semester with flying colour. =)

- Myself
Sigh, recently very bad luck lo.
Last week bang car around my college there.
Luckily not so serious, but engine mounting need to change lo.
Brother said actually the engine mounting almost need to change ad.
But after I bang lorry's si fat then have to change immediately lo.
Sorry la, your car go paint that time I help you pay at least half la. ^^"

Next, hubby recently seems like want to keep fit ya.
Sometimes don't want go eat, don't know why.
You this stupid fat pig, must go eat la, I don't care.
Wednesday and Thursday I still can go cafeteria buy some food for you, but Tuesday I can't buy for you ad.
Haha, recently you like to eat nugget already right?
I know I like to eat de you also will like one. Haha, so perasan.
No la, actually is too delicious la. =P

- Ji mui
I think we have less contact since we started our college.
A new life within you all really looks different.
No more photos, and no more stupid jokes.
Sigh, I really miss you guys.

However, Pamela, i just view your blog.
I know myself quite outdated already la, ish.
Are you okay?
Don't be sad because I am still around you!
You are so near with me. =P
Remember la, we are ji mui.
Anything unhappy can tell me, don't cry in the middle night. =)
And, where is your chat box? How I leave comment for you jek?
Impossible always tag you in Facebook and ask you to view my blog gua? o.O

Qii's blog really death, lol, one year she didn't update it.
Hard to know what is her conditions also.
Anyway, add oil~ =)

Okay la, I have to start edit my notes.
Later hubby will bring me go his house.
I promise I will try to always online and update my blog la.
Li Wen, I got update ar~ Jojo doesn't update lo. Haha.

Rushing assignments~

Stucked already, again.

Haiz, tomorrow Malaysian Studies test 2.

Assignments not yet done, tests coming some more.

Headache again, kill me.

Don't lar, not enough sleep already.

Going to fall asleep now.

Hubby ben ben. Didn't choi bii at Facebook. T________T

Tired.

Gotta go. @@

My weekend

Yay, I am here again.

Lol, today only know this Wednesday got test for Marketing.

Oh my god, I am in trouble.

I not yet start revise, test 2 is essay err.

Okay, I know.

Have to start revise tomorrow already.

As usual, weekend together with hubby.

Hubby fat fat, sleep till very late only bring me out.

Lunch eat maggi, didn't feed me also. T__T

But he feed me KFC when dinner.

Hehe, my hubby is fatty, my fatty. ^^

Wonder how my anniversary card looks like.

Want faster get it from hubby.

Ngek ngek.

Bye bye. =P

Another busy week again

Ya, I am updating my blog now.

My blog really looks death again, although I have changed the skin.

Wonder why I am free at here?

Because my class dismiss earlier again, and waiting for hubby to lunch together.

Feel quite paiseh to Li Wen,

because every Friday she ask me to lunch together but I still didn't go with her.

Sorry ya, really not in the mood.

I really need a lot of time to figure out which direction we should go for our assignment.

I don't want to fail this subject and I don't want you all to fail too.

The assignments are getting harder than the first assignments.

Means that we should put more effort on the assignment to score at least B for the subjects.

Some more, your PTPTN is required a CGPA of 2.0 or above.

Oh my god, really stress.

Alright, back to the topic.

It is really another busy week for us again.

3 assignments, 2 group and 1 individual for CSC and Accounting.

Not just assignments, there will be three tests coming together in this month.

Maths, that I think is okay for me ; Marketing and Malaysian Studies.

I really prefer there is 36 hours for me in a day than 24 hours in a day.

Time not enough to cover everything and insert into my brain.

Another problem that makes me mad,

is I doesn't know what the hell the questions are asking for the assignments.

Ya, regret why I didn't try to improve my English since I were in secondary school.

Crazy, college life is not really relax seriously.

Anyway, thanks for my classmates.

Especially Kok Meng, Hacky, Ser May, Jie Yin and others.

They really helps me a lot of the questions which I not really understand.

Jojo and Li Wen, thanks for giving me more motivation to solve all the problems we face. =)

PEACE~

A little space for my zi mui...

Pamela Quek Quek, where is your chatbox ar?

I can't comment anything because you have no any space for me to leave a comment for you.

Really miss you guys, but seriously have to concentrate on studies first.

And, wish you can pass your final exam with flying colours.

Don't stress, try your best, I know you can do it well. =)

A big kiss for you la, mwahxxsssss...

May of college life

Hey, my blog looks so death again.

Nevermind, I am here to update my blog now.

I will be in holiday for 1 week, mid-term break.

Think to have a rest at home or going for a movie with my hubby.

Anyway, this May have a lot of things happened.

First, we just passed the CSC individual assignment, MPW test 1, Marketing test 1, Account test 1.

Everything seems going smooth after the busy week.

I am always complaining the CSC lecturer, can't stop thinking of the way he say NO NO NO.

Please lar, if wrong then say earlier, don't last minute only tell me ma. *Yer*

And, Mr.Lee Kok Meng.

Happy birthday! ( I know is a bit late ) =P

Of course, Cheexheng also ya!

Hehe.

Ok lar.

Really headache, have to off now.

Appreciate the moment we spend together in college,

Jojo, Li Wen, Jia Hui, Shi Min and etc. =)

Somebody sick

Aiyer, wanna copy notes actually.

But, still didn't finish copy.

God, I am so lazy ad.

Anyway, my hubby sick.

Fever, hot hot.

I also half sick, flu~

Sad lo, gtg.

bye bye.

April, a busy month ever

I am back again.

Tried to change my blogskin but failed.

Because everything is okay, just can't preview my articles.

Sad, missed a nice blogskin.

By the way, I think I will not be here for quite a long period.

The assignments coming and coming non-stop this month.

I have no time to do other things as well.

So that, I just wanna rush up my assignments as soon as possible.

I started my college for almost a month.

Met many friends here, and having fun.

This April is totally make me mad because I start couldn't catch up the syllabus.

Especially the Marketing.

Hope I can more understand this topic by reading and reading the notes again.

*yawn*

Alright, have to rush up my assignments.

Say goodbye. =)

College life began

Seems like long time didn't update my blog.
Freaking free here to update because I have to stay here until evening I think.
And now, it is April. Soon, May is coming.
I am start going to busy after today.

Today class till 11am, and stay for interview session.
Formal attire required and yesterday I went to buy everything that I need.
2nd week of May will be the due date of assignments.
I just done one out of three assignments.
Oh my god. =(

Have to rush for assignment non-stop.
No break for researching, searching and searching.
* Yawn *

Deal with Er Vyn last 2 days.
About our weak subject.
He will be teaching me Marketing.
And I teach back him Maths.

Anyway, I want game now.
But, ACCESS DENIED!
* Arghhhhhhh *

Orientation Day

Today is Orientation Day.

I am not so excited because I think it would take a long time.

Woke up at 7.10am, prepare everything before going college.

Hubby fetch me later on.

We reach college about 8.30am.

Then we going to have our breakfast - McDonald.

Hubby spilled coffee on his pant and bag carelessly.

He got the smell of McD coffee. =)

Then, I went for orientation at Lecturer Hall.

Sitting alone there, and going to fall asleep.

The speech going to make me feel sleepy.

But I din, because I stomach ache. ==

SPM Result

Lala. I am late to here again.

I am kinda tired this few days.

Seems like everyday woke up early in the morning.

My panda eyes back to me again. ( Mr. Lim Shoon Yik said so )

Ya, I knew.

Don't remind me about my panda eyes anymore.

I have no idea to kick away my eye bag.

Because I felt sleepy in the morning but I am not sleepy in the night.

Back to that day of releasing SPM result.

I drive to school and mum followed me too.

We all have been waiting for a long time at outside.

And finally, we can entered to the school.

I were a little worried of my result.

I expected get 5A's and maybe some B, C, D and E.

Everyone was stressed while taking result.

I am the one who not I think.

I just want to take it as soon as possible.

So that can back home earlier.

It was my turn.

I knew I got 3A's because Wen Thing saw it.

But there was something very unexpected.

Those subjects which I think will get lower grade,

all were in a alphabet of B.

Wow, haha.

It was excited, just BC get C+.

It was worth and satisfying.

I paid off my time, and I get a result which was satisfying.

My Account Principles, Economic and Mathematics got A.

I can't expect I will got grade B for History!

Anyway, still have thank you to my teachers.

Especially Mr C.Y.Tan who keep pushing me to achieve a higher grade for Add Maths.

He was actually thought I can get A for Add Maths.

But I think I disappointed him because I just get B for it.

Lastly, I want to say.

Hey! I am graduated! =D

Ridiculous...

Hey, I am back again.

Actually, I really felt ridiculous.

The reason is they are not the people I knew anymore.

The sight of them were strangeness.

Even are the senior whom watched me grow.

Maybe time can change something.

I realize it.

And now, I don't feel like going there anymore.

Since they seems like not welcoming us.

Then, I know what should I do for the following event they invite us.

The another reason I choose not to go is,

there are many people let me feel that they are very nosy.

That's all.

FW: 可不可以在你眼里只有我一个?

我喜欢跟你在一起，跟你在一起的时候我感到会很开心；

我喜欢你在网络上坏笑的样子，让我觉得你真的很可爱；

我喜欢你的单纯、老实，你的优点和缺点我都喜欢，我希望你以后都可以这样，这样就属于我一个人的了；

我很自私，我很霸道，我很坏，有时也很无聊；

我害怕孤单，我害怕受伤，我害怕最重要的人离开，我害怕独处；

我喜欢热闹，我喜欢玩，我喜欢跟心里重要的人在一起，

Wondering

I am here again.

Felt disappointed, heart pain.

I rather you tell me the truth.

Also don't want to know by this way.

Sorry doesn't cure.

My heart is freaking pain.

Pain and pain.

I also don't know, who is the one who telling me can't go out every Thursday.

If you don't want to out with me, just tell.

Don't later tell me you are going out with who who and who again.

This is so ridiculous.

Forget it.

Just let it be.

Thanks for giving me such a special day.

I won't request outing in Thursday anymore.

讓愛轉動整個宇宙

老天給人們偶爾一些痛
凡人就得開始做功課
胸襟越磨越寬就越自由
腳步也會變得更從容
大地像母親伸出一雙手
願意承受這麼多負荷
徬徨的人生不知往哪走
記住這裡永遠還有我
陪你渡過

讓愛轉動整個宇宙
把我當成你的港口
你不必擁有地球 就可以擁有我
最真摯無悔的承諾

老天給人們偶爾一些痛
凡人就得開始做功課
胸襟越磨越寬就越自由
腳步也會變得更從容
大地像母親伸出一雙手
願意承受這麼多負荷
徬徨的人生不知往哪走
記住這裡永遠還有我 陪你渡過

讓愛轉動整個宇宙
把我當成你的港口
你不必擁有地球 就可以擁有我
最真摯無悔的承諾

讓愛轉動整個宇宙
把我當成你的港口
你不必擁有地球 就可以擁有我
最熟悉溫暖的笑容

心不是沒有天崩地裂過
曾掉進沒有人安慰的黑洞
年華過幾個秋
慶幸我們還有夢
我們都還這樣勇敢的唱歌

讓愛轉動整個宇宙
把我當成你的港口
你不必擁有地球 就可以擁有我
最真摯無悔的承諾

讓愛轉動整個宇宙
把我當成你的港口
你不必擁有地球 就可以擁有我
最熟悉溫暖的笑容

I have nothing to say

Feeling lifeless nowadays.

I need something to full fill my time.

Rush for something and wont think for anything.

Seriously, I am so boring.

Boring and boring.

Nothing to do, nothing to say and lot of things stucked in my mind.

I want to sweep all away. ='(

Should be mature?

Ya, should be already.

Won't let you all worry about me.

Shocked!

Well, I really shocked when I heard this news.

I don't know who is the one saying truth.

But I don't feel like want to believe both of them anymore.

Since everything changed.

I don't know what you thinking.

But I really feel disappointed on you.

Maybe you never admin us as your friends.

But we did, and we share.

I don't know.

I doesn't want to explain much.

And I won't treat u as my friend anymore.

就这么一点点心痛

泪水就差那么一点点，就涌出来。。。

Replacement for Valentine's day

Yesterday went to Sunway Pyramid with dear.

It's a replacement for our Valentine's day.

Because he was busy studying at 1402.

By the way, I am stil enjoying although yesterday is not Valentine's day. =)

First year of Valentine's day we go through together.

No Valentine's present, but it is enough because I got the Valentine card from him.

This is the first card he made for girl.

And it's received by me. =D

Let's show you how the card looks like. =)

Haha. Cute right?

I really can't expect he draw a pair of small elephant. =D

But, it is cute.

And it is just for me. ^^

Dear~

Thanks for giving me a sweet Valentine's day.

I appreciate it so much. Mwahs. =)

Again

No need I explain, you can know what is happening on me through the picture above. =="

Ya, I get flu again.

God, my nose was stucked.

Can't breathe. =(

Last week fever, then now flu.

Dunno should laugh or cry.

Luckily I am sick before I start my college.

And unluckily, I am sick twice in a month. =S

Anyway, I already have an idea for the coming anniversary day.

Haha. Don't expect too much from me.

I only have the idea of making card. And maybe present? =D

Okay, should off already.

Mum is waiting for me.

Bye bye! =)

Happy Valentine's Day

Today is 1402 as known as Valentine's Day.

My dear posted a status at Facebook.

" Do not lost your virginity at Valentine's day "

Lol... Sei ye.

Anyway, a bad news!

I AM SICK!

Lol... Fever.

No wonder I felt my head so heavy. =(

Luckily today not going to celebrate.

Because dear have class today.

It's ok because he will replace it within a week for me. =)

拜天公

I am late to here again.

Sorry, peeps. =p

Last thursday's post actually, 1002 la.

Dear brought me to his uncle's house.

They have steamboat that day.

And his 3rd uncle birthday that day too. =D

Happy birthday, uncle!

After we finish steamboat, dear hold my hand and we walked to playground.

So miss the moment because we less going to playground for a little chat at night.

Aww, it is a special moment that I remember much! =)

Loves ya, hubby. Mwahs.

After that, we back to uncle's house again.

His daughter is so cute.

So sad I forgot to take a picture with her.

Hee. Next time la. =D

Take a piece of cake for dear.

I scare fat. Haha.

Then around 11 I think, dear fetch me back home.

Aunty asked me to take a cake and jelly back home.

Wonder when my family member only can finish the cake.

For sure jelly will be finish by ME. =)

It is 00:00 now.

After bai bai then bro asked to put 孔明灯...

It is a great experience because I never try to put it before.

Then? I watch my new drama inside my room til 2 something only sleep!

Hah.

Back to my lovely blog again...

I'm back... =="

Because I am sooooooooo bored...

No car... No where to go...

So sad I am staying at home...

I miss him...

He keep running in my mind...

And now I think he is preparing bbq's stuff...

So just waiting his message...

Hey Mr.Right...

Are you done...?

Day 1 of CNY

I'm back to here again...

Seems I am so free...

Today alot of people upload new profile picture...

But I didn't upload any picture...

I think I am not longer like to take pictures already...

Nevermind, it's ok...

I am seriously not in the mood of having fun during CNY...

I am totally bored because I just keep staying at home...

Dear dear will stay one more night at Labis...

Tomorrow morning he will back to Puchong...

But just back to here and rest a while...

Then he will back to Teluk Intan after take a rest...

Hey... I am freaking bored now...

No mood to wear nice nice already... =(

Someone date me out please?

Reunion dinner ♥

Tada... Today is Chinese New Year eve!

This year is my turn to treat my family eat reunion dinner...

Because I earned money through hard work...

Should treat them eat full full de... =)

But taste not good weer...

Brothers and mum keep complain their level drop already...

Lol... But this is the truth... ==

Just admit it really not delicious...

Today dear also go back hometown le...

So miss him...

So sad he didn't bring laptop along...

No webcam until this Sunday... =(

But dear dear very sek me o...

He called me just now after finish his dinner...

Feels so sweet after listen his sexy voice... =p

Hehe...

Dunno what is his response after view my blog?

Anyway, I have just updated my blog...

New SKIN, new CHAT BOX and new POST... =D

Hey guys...

Wish you all Happy Chinese New Year...!

Ang pao ang pao mari lo... XD

It's just what i am thinking

It's touch...

When you watching the final of the singing competition...

You can feel their strength...

That is never stop and it is keep going on till the end...

Actually....

Do anyone will think who is the one behind of you...

Pay out his or her everything...

Just to support you...

And get your understanding?

I think... Not everyone...

Hey man... Please be with her when she need you most...

You shouldn't hurt her although you doesn't mean to...

How come you can say so?

Everyone has their reason to decline something...

Why you can't just respect your girlfriend...

And think of her?

She has her pressure...

And you gave her more pressure...

Why can't you try to understand her...?

And give her some support or try to release her pressure?

You are too bad... =(

I hate your words...

That hurt her so much...

It's totally enough... Isn't the reunion dinner is so important?

Do you think about her family?

Selfish...! Dun even talk like this to her anymore...

She is on the corner of breaking mind...

Stop pushing her and hurt her with your sucks sentences...!

You doesn't know that your words hurt her much...

Till she will even remember what you said to her when she is alone...

Stop acting you are the right one...

It's a joke!

Ok... Back to my current status...

I will be stop working tomorrow...

Since she said till like i can't live without her salary...

Fine... I doesn't care about this...

Do you think I really very need this thousand bucks?

Sorry that you are wrong...

I won't continue this job although you pay back me the amount...

You know what you said...

It's so terrible...!

You said you want to continue then tomorrow come to work as usual...

If don't want then no need come anymore...

Excuse me... Should be I fired you actually...!

But the way... I'm so free now!

Belated posts

Seems like my blog looks death again...

Seriously, this year is quite tough to me...

First, I been selected to go to national service...

And the doctor wanted me to see the nuerologist doctor at KL hospital...

Fine... I know no one can bring me there...

So I give up to apply unfit for national service...

Second, let's talk about my work...

Clerk, a new challenge for me because I didn't work for this before...

I start feeling tired and tired everyday...

The orders are so complicated and many like a little mountain...

I very proud of myself because I still can open 60+ orders in one day...

But I'm obviously feel bored...

My arm and neck are damn pain and feel more serious than last time...

I think I didn't have a good sleep... =(

Third, something was happened...

It's quite a scary and blur case things that I ever met before...

Louisa feel that also...

And I start feeling weird and weird after that...

I doesn't know isn't I am too sensitive or what...

But I'm really worry about this and don't feel wan related with that anymore...

Hope everything will be fine as what I think...

Fourth, about me and my dear...

Feel that we really didn't meet each other more than 8 days in a month...

Because he has to be concentrate on studies and me have to work included Saturday...

It makes me more appreciate the moment that can meet him...

Because we doesn't have any extra time to meet already...

And we just can meet each other few hours in that day...

But dear, it's enough for me...

Because it's more good than never meet you right? =)

I LOVE YOU, DEAR~

Heee... =p

Lastly, CNY coming soon...

I'm very glad because I no need work at 2 of Feb...

I can out with my dear dear that day morning...

Before he going back to hometown...

Anyway... Wish all my friends Happy Chinese New Year...!

Especially Kelvin bang, the dao gei that staying at Hawaii now... =D

Happy New Year

Yesterday went to Sunway Pyramid to countdown.

With Qii, Pamela, Huix, Kelvin and dear.

The first year I went to countdown.

It's so excited but then also a bit mad.

Anyway, yesterday was a memorable day.

So sad because I didn't take any photos with dear.

But it's enough for me. =)

1 day and 22 mins more.

I will be start working as a clerk.

A new experience I will gain and I think I can handle it well.

It's a new year.

And it's a beginning for me to study something new yet work hard.

I hope everything will be fine.

Because it's a new year. =)